I originally didn't want to write a review of my last year (2015) but after the countdown I thought about it, and say I should write one. Because 2015 is a very special year for me, I was able to do and achieve quite a number of goals and things that I never thought that I would do.
First was climbing up Mount Kinabalu. For many years, my mum have thought of going to climb up Mount Kk, but I have always turn down it. But in 2014, when I was planning to study abroad, I was thinking that if I wait until I finish my studies, my mum may not be fit enough to climb up there anymore, why not just try and climb up before I leave for my studies. That was how we planned to climb up. To say the truth, I always wanted to do so, but always scared that I am not able to do so. But it wasn't that case, I did better than I thought. I was able to reach Laban Rata just on time via the longer Mesilau route. I was able to reach the peak although slightly past sunrise. I remember one of the guides was saying that it is rare to see someone of my size to be able to achieve it (also my parents age.. haha...) Of course, one month training before it was one of the reason I could did it. Thanks mum for pushing to climb.
I am always that kind of person who like to plan and do things accordingly (of course not perfectly la...), but I did something that I never thought I would do ever in my life. Enquiring and enrolling into a course after the start of the course. I had plans of going overseas for my tertiary education, but in the end, I had to give it up because there was a conflict between my parents expectation and mine. Studying abroad was just something that I hope to experience but not to be a huge burden to me and my family. So I gave up and instead took another path that suit me better. I planned to study locally and spent the money in travelling instead. I chose Taylor at first but there was a long time before they start so my parents asked me to look at other options. KDU was never an option for me as I hate the DJ campus because I feel congested in it. But, when I got to know KDU have just move to a new campus, my eyes brighten. I still remember that day, I was so happy that KDU have a bigger campus as I always thought of it but never put it as my option due to their old campus. On that very day, me and my parents decided that I would go there and study. I had to skip orientation (which is something I always like to go) as it was on the day I made my decision. Till now, I never regretted it (except when I think of nz... haha).
KDU was somewhere I stepped out and did something I had always dreamt of but never did. Moving into hostel and experiencing freedom (at last); joining dance club (PARTs, where I have met a bunch of crazy and wonderful people); had a silent fight with my friend which I care but not being able to be friends again; got quite a good result continuously (which I was only able to do once in a while last time); work as a telemarketer (when I had a fear of calling people) and doing it quite well now; getting a wonderful daughter ( a very good friend of mine which thinks alike as me); had a problem with my social skills but was able to overcome it with the help of meimei, etc...
Friends I met in KDU was also a bunch of special friends. I had crazy friends, helpful friends, weird friends, great friends, and many other friends that I never thought I will be able to get to know. I became a very different me compared to the one I was previously. Shuyen, Peipei and Xuanyee, my 3 great friends and classmate. We had fight and walked holding hands to go through our first year of degree and had nailed it. Venessa who have taught me things that I had problem with (although I know she don't know about it.. haha... ) Chelsea, Jacob, Nelson and many more from PARTs, they have made me feel that I belong to a place, a group that I didn't know I can fit in. Jetaime and Vivian, two really special friends that had brought me to places I never have seen and making me feel home in their room. My dear daughter, Shiauzhen, who had made me feel needed and supported me in my decisions. There are also many others that I have met and changed me. I do not know whether will our friendship continue as it is now in the future, but for now, I want to hold it tight and keep it continuing for as long as it can be.
I was also able to do something that I have been trying for many years. Being able to plan a almost perfect trip. Since I started to learn to plan for any trips, I never been able to plan and execute it so perfectly as my chengdu-jiuzaigou trip. Almost everything was just as planned except for minor problems that we were able to fix and continue our journey. I think partially was also because Zhihui and my parents did not bother and request much for that trip.
There are still many more that I always dream of doing but never did until 2015. like reading a book in a cafe for a few hours alone with just one cup of coffee, overcome my fear of heights and go for escape park, buy food from ramadan bazzar and many more (which I don't really remember.. haha... my memory is just slightly longer than a goldfish... what to do)
2015 was a year full of surprise and fulfillment, but still it is past now. I'm just gonna leave whatever bad memories that I have in 2015 and bring all the good and great memories into my future. 2016, I going to do just like that I did last year, let everything flow naturally. I do not want to do much resolution like the others but rather just hope that it would be like 2015, full of surprises and fulfillment.
Happy New Year! Let's make a new year a better me!
29/11/2015
累了，想歇一下。
我不能接受就是不能，不是说你说得不对，但是我这种个性就是接受不了。当我接受不了，我只想要远离它。的确，这样的人世上有很多，但是不是每个人 都可以接受，忍耐它的。
而且，我不是没有尝试过，而是到了忍无可忍的情况了。有很多事可能你会觉得还好吧，但是我会觉得那是我完全不能接受。
要到忍无可忍的情况不是一件事造成的，而是很多很多事结合的。一天两天也不足，是长久累月的。
累了，想躲一下，想逃离一下，不能吗？
12/06/2015
What is true love?
Quite a few of my friends around me are now in the stage where they are in a relationship or just ended their relationship. Many of those who just ended their relationship keep talking that they miss their ex when their ex are that kind of people who are so shitty. Those who are in a relationship then keep complaining that he or she keep doing this or doing that that displease them.
It made me suddenly thought of something that my class have discussed once quite sometime ago. Many of them did not believe in true love. I remember one of my friend said to me, there is nothing in the world called true love. But this situation changed now. The classmates that I have now keep thinking that there is, and they keep thinking about their ex, or maybe put too much effort on their bf/gf rather than their friends sometimes.
For me, I do believe that there is love, but not that kind of "You die, I die" type. Rather, I believe love is something that is build on friendship, it's a feeling that require friendship to stay strong. If you do not feel comfortable in the relationship anymore, I do think you should just leave it aside. Everyone need their own personal space, which the other should give occasionally otherwise, just like a friendship, no one will like a person who keep intruding to your own personal things that you don't want someone else to know.
Maybe for now, when we are still not at the stage of getting married, it may still be okay to believe so much in true love. But believe is one thing, doing so is another. We must still stay at our own believes rather than follow blindly whatever he or she ask us to do. It is not something that we should be doing.
At this age, just do whatever you like and want, but remember to keep strong on your own believes and not to stray too far from it. Enjoy Life!
It made me suddenly thought of something that my class have discussed once quite sometime ago. Many of them did not believe in true love. I remember one of my friend said to me, there is nothing in the world called true love. But this situation changed now. The classmates that I have now keep thinking that there is, and they keep thinking about their ex, or maybe put too much effort on their bf/gf rather than their friends sometimes.
For me, I do believe that there is love, but not that kind of "You die, I die" type. Rather, I believe love is something that is build on friendship, it's a feeling that require friendship to stay strong. If you do not feel comfortable in the relationship anymore, I do think you should just leave it aside. Everyone need their own personal space, which the other should give occasionally otherwise, just like a friendship, no one will like a person who keep intruding to your own personal things that you don't want someone else to know.
Maybe for now, when we are still not at the stage of getting married, it may still be okay to believe so much in true love. But believe is one thing, doing so is another. We must still stay at our own believes rather than follow blindly whatever he or she ask us to do. It is not something that we should be doing.
At this age, just do whatever you like and want, but remember to keep strong on your own believes and not to stray too far from it. Enjoy Life!
26/05/2014
Western education VS Asian education. Who wins?
I just read a few articles about problems of our education. Suddenly I was thinking, is western education really good? Why are every Asians keep thinking of following the western education? Is it really better?
Well, personally I doubt so. Although western education has it's own pros but does it mean that Asian education is not good. NO... Asian education has it's own pros too. Only that many did not see that.
First, although Asian education have been very competitive,but still it is the most suitable for Asians. It have given tremendous stress to students, but look at those who succeeded through it, many have succeeded in many different ways. If Asian education is really that bad, why is there so many success. Not saying anything personal or what, but Asians are really competitive, until a certain extend it had been an important part of Asians. Competition is everywhere, parents compete their children's result or performance, students compete their own results between each other, teachers compete their student's result. I may seems like giving a lot of stress to students, but looking at it at another way, without it, would students do their best for exams? It another way it actually motivates students to study well, to make themselves have more knowledge than others. Is there any problem with it? Well, to me there isn't any, if students themselves know how to manage their stress.
Secondly, always there have been controversy about textbooks, on what we study. Many students,especially Asian hate subjects that they feel is not useful, hate one subject or another, thinking that it is boring. Does it mean that is it really boring, is the subject really not required to be study? I don't think so, I have always believe that every thing the world has a reason why is it there. Subjects like history are actually very useful subjects that would help us in our life in one way or another, and the problem of it is boring is mainly due to the teaching of the teacher, but no comment on that.
Thirdly, the way teachers teach or in another words, the education system as a whole. I believe this is the main reason why many have believed that western education is better. I would say, both are equally good education system, but they are never perfect. It all depends on how you use the education system. The success or failure of a person does not all depends on teachers or school, there are many other factors play an important role in the education system, but many are still blaming the school, the teachers, or maybe the government.
Is western education really that good? I doubt so. Even there have been many compliments on the western education, but at the same time, critics on western education is increasing, especially the increasing no. of social problems now is happening within the younger generation of western countries. Also I have always believe that both western and Asian education are similar in certain ways, only that we only always think that the grass on the other side is greener.
I have always believe there is no perfect education and there will never be too. Every child have their own personality, own characteristic, own thinking, own background which makes each different child is suitable for different type of education. But is it possible in the world that there would be 'custom-made' education suitable for each different child? Even if you don't think so far about it, how would you know which type of education is suitable for the child?
The most important for all is that everyone just need to make yourself comfortable in your own ways and be happy! :)
All of this is just my own opinion which may not be true as I did not really go and understand everything about it, and also I'm not an educationist, a politician or what. I'm just a student and only writing my own views on the current education system. Everything is just what I think.
Well, personally I doubt so. Although western education has it's own pros but does it mean that Asian education is not good. NO... Asian education has it's own pros too. Only that many did not see that.
First, although Asian education have been very competitive,but still it is the most suitable for Asians. It have given tremendous stress to students, but look at those who succeeded through it, many have succeeded in many different ways. If Asian education is really that bad, why is there so many success. Not saying anything personal or what, but Asians are really competitive, until a certain extend it had been an important part of Asians. Competition is everywhere, parents compete their children's result or performance, students compete their own results between each other, teachers compete their student's result. I may seems like giving a lot of stress to students, but looking at it at another way, without it, would students do their best for exams? It another way it actually motivates students to study well, to make themselves have more knowledge than others. Is there any problem with it? Well, to me there isn't any, if students themselves know how to manage their stress.
Secondly, always there have been controversy about textbooks, on what we study. Many students,especially Asian hate subjects that they feel is not useful, hate one subject or another, thinking that it is boring. Does it mean that is it really boring, is the subject really not required to be study? I don't think so, I have always believe that every thing the world has a reason why is it there. Subjects like history are actually very useful subjects that would help us in our life in one way or another, and the problem of it is boring is mainly due to the teaching of the teacher, but no comment on that.
Thirdly, the way teachers teach or in another words, the education system as a whole. I believe this is the main reason why many have believed that western education is better. I would say, both are equally good education system, but they are never perfect. It all depends on how you use the education system. The success or failure of a person does not all depends on teachers or school, there are many other factors play an important role in the education system, but many are still blaming the school, the teachers, or maybe the government.
Is western education really that good? I doubt so. Even there have been many compliments on the western education, but at the same time, critics on western education is increasing, especially the increasing no. of social problems now is happening within the younger generation of western countries. Also I have always believe that both western and Asian education are similar in certain ways, only that we only always think that the grass on the other side is greener.
I have always believe there is no perfect education and there will never be too. Every child have their own personality, own characteristic, own thinking, own background which makes each different child is suitable for different type of education. But is it possible in the world that there would be 'custom-made' education suitable for each different child? Even if you don't think so far about it, how would you know which type of education is suitable for the child?
The most important for all is that everyone just need to make yourself comfortable in your own ways and be happy! :)
All of this is just my own opinion which may not be true as I did not really go and understand everything about it, and also I'm not an educationist, a politician or what. I'm just a student and only writing my own views on the current education system. Everything is just what I think.
14/02/2012
A Valentines' message
To: All who will be reading this
Happy Valentines' to you (anyone)
Hope you will have a happy Valentines'.
Hope you can have a great time with your love ones.
Hope that those who has a partner to enjoy your wonderful valentines' dinner.
Hope that those who has not have a partner to find your partner.
Hope that those who love someone but do not have the courage to tell he/she to get back your courage and tell them that you love he/she.
Hope that those whose partner are far from them to be together soon.
Hope that those who have a love message to someone whom you love that haven been sent to the person to send it now.
Hope that those whose birthday is on valentines' day will have a wonderful gift from their partner.
Hope that the bond between you and your love ones will always be strong.
Hope that the love inside everyone will always be there and always share it with those who need it.
Hope everyone can appreciate those who are still beside you.
Hope that everyone will never have bad intention in doing anything (big or small)
Hope that the world can always be full of love.
Hope that Valentines' day can forever be there.
Lets' share our love with those who you know and to every stranger you meet.
Hope all of you will enjoy your Valentines' !!!!!
Happy Valentines' to you (anyone)
Hope you will have a happy Valentines'.
Hope you can have a great time with your love ones.
Hope that those who has a partner to enjoy your wonderful valentines' dinner.
Hope that those who has not have a partner to find your partner.
Hope that those who love someone but do not have the courage to tell he/she to get back your courage and tell them that you love he/she.
Hope that those whose partner are far from them to be together soon.
Hope that those who have a love message to someone whom you love that haven been sent to the person to send it now.
Hope that those whose birthday is on valentines' day will have a wonderful gift from their partner.
Hope that the bond between you and your love ones will always be strong.
Hope that the love inside everyone will always be there and always share it with those who need it.
Hope everyone can appreciate those who are still beside you.
Hope that everyone will never have bad intention in doing anything (big or small)
Hope that the world can always be full of love.
Hope that Valentines' day can forever be there.
Lets' share our love with those who you know and to every stranger you meet.
Hope all of you will enjoy your Valentines' !!!!!
By
Sue Ann
P.S.written at a time that Valentines' Day gonna Past. ^^
26/06/2011
感想 26/06/11
今天看了《欢迎爱光临》，这部戏让我觉得身边好像散发出一种淡淡的幸福感。它少了戏里最常出现的争吵，斗争，平平淡淡的故事里让我们看见平淡的爱情。
它告诉了我们，爱情有时候并不需要时轰轰烈烈的，淡淡的爱也可以拥有永久的保鲜期。
别于平常的连续剧，这是一部特别，不常见的类型。
我最喜欢这种平淡的故事了.....
它告诉了我们，爱情有时候并不需要时轰轰烈烈的，淡淡的爱也可以拥有永久的保鲜期。
别于平常的连续剧，这是一部特别，不常见的类型。
我最喜欢这种平淡的故事了.....
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