I originally didn't want to write a review of my last year (2015) but after the countdown I thought about it, and say I should write one. Because 2015 is a very special year for me, I was able to do and achieve quite a number of goals and things that I never thought that I would do.
First was climbing up Mount Kinabalu. For many years, my mum have thought of going to climb up Mount Kk, but I have always turn down it. But in 2014, when I was planning to study abroad, I was thinking that if I wait until I finish my studies, my mum may not be fit enough to climb up there anymore, why not just try and climb up before I leave for my studies. That was how we planned to climb up. To say the truth, I always wanted to do so, but always scared that I am not able to do so. But it wasn't that case, I did better than I thought. I was able to reach Laban Rata just on time via the longer Mesilau route. I was able to reach the peak although slightly past sunrise. I remember one of the guides was saying that it is rare to see someone of my size to be able to achieve it (also my parents age.. haha...) Of course, one month training before it was one of the reason I could did it. Thanks mum for pushing to climb.
I am always that kind of person who like to plan and do things accordingly (of course not perfectly la...), but I did something that I never thought I would do ever in my life. Enquiring and enrolling into a course after the start of the course. I had plans of going overseas for my tertiary education, but in the end, I had to give it up because there was a conflict between my parents expectation and mine. Studying abroad was just something that I hope to experience but not to be a huge burden to me and my family. So I gave up and instead took another path that suit me better. I planned to study locally and spent the money in travelling instead. I chose Taylor at first but there was a long time before they start so my parents asked me to look at other options. KDU was never an option for me as I hate the DJ campus because I feel congested in it. But, when I got to know KDU have just move to a new campus, my eyes brighten. I still remember that day, I was so happy that KDU have a bigger campus as I always thought of it but never put it as my option due to their old campus. On that very day, me and my parents decided that I would go there and study. I had to skip orientation (which is something I always like to go) as it was on the day I made my decision. Till now, I never regretted it (except when I think of nz... haha).
KDU was somewhere I stepped out and did something I had always dreamt of but never did. Moving into hostel and experiencing freedom (at last); joining dance club (PARTs, where I have met a bunch of crazy and wonderful people); had a silent fight with my friend which I care but not being able to be friends again; got quite a good result continuously (which I was only able to do once in a while last time); work as a telemarketer (when I had a fear of calling people) and doing it quite well now; getting a wonderful daughter ( a very good friend of mine which thinks alike as me); had a problem with my social skills but was able to overcome it with the help of meimei, etc...
Friends I met in KDU was also a bunch of special friends. I had crazy friends, helpful friends, weird friends, great friends, and many other friends that I never thought I will be able to get to know. I became a very different me compared to the one I was previously. Shuyen, Peipei and Xuanyee, my 3 great friends and classmate. We had fight and walked holding hands to go through our first year of degree and had nailed it. Venessa who have taught me things that I had problem with (although I know she don't know about it.. haha... ) Chelsea, Jacob, Nelson and many more from PARTs, they have made me feel that I belong to a place, a group that I didn't know I can fit in. Jetaime and Vivian, two really special friends that had brought me to places I never have seen and making me feel home in their room. My dear daughter, Shiauzhen, who had made me feel needed and supported me in my decisions. There are also many others that I have met and changed me. I do not know whether will our friendship continue as it is now in the future, but for now, I want to hold it tight and keep it continuing for as long as it can be.
I was also able to do something that I have been trying for many years. Being able to plan a almost perfect trip. Since I started to learn to plan for any trips, I never been able to plan and execute it so perfectly as my chengdu-jiuzaigou trip. Almost everything was just as planned except for minor problems that we were able to fix and continue our journey. I think partially was also because Zhihui and my parents did not bother and request much for that trip.
There are still many more that I always dream of doing but never did until 2015. like reading a book in a cafe for a few hours alone with just one cup of coffee, overcome my fear of heights and go for escape park, buy food from ramadan bazzar and many more (which I don't really remember.. haha... my memory is just slightly longer than a goldfish... what to do)
2015 was a year full of surprise and fulfillment, but still it is past now. I'm just gonna leave whatever bad memories that I have in 2015 and bring all the good and great memories into my future. 2016, I going to do just like that I did last year, let everything flow naturally. I do not want to do much resolution like the others but rather just hope that it would be like 2015, full of surprises and fulfillment.
Happy New Year! Let's make a new year a better me!
